Monday, July 11, 2005

All I can think about is this spot in my chest. I've been thinking, if you can only see the breast during a mammogram, I don't think they'll see what's bothering me. It's under my breast and about an inch or so in on the side under my arm. Hopefully it gets the whole chest.

I'm afraid it's from smoking. I'm not freaking freaking, because we don't know what it is yet.

I may just come to this website and sound off about my feelings, because I don't want my husband or friends and family to know how concerned I am. If it turns out to be nothing, I would have worried them for nothing. I told my best friend I had gone to the doctor. She looked up from what she was doing and grinned, like she was waiting for me to continue. When I didn't, she said, "and when you want me to know, you'll tell me." We both smiled.

1 comment:

Shirl said...

I think this is one of those "purposes of bloggings" that the books never talk about, that it is a place perfect for situations such as yours, where you want to put words to the worries without saying them aloud.

I'm hoping they can see what it is on the mammogram (those squishes do catch quite a bit) but I know you'll keep working with them until you get a definitive answer. I'm SO hoping it's a cystic thing.

{{{hugs}}}