Hallelujah! I slept six hours last night. I feel a lot better but still have some way to go with mental health, I'll admit.
I DO feel like I can say that I am off of some sort of death watch. Not 100% but enough so that I can claim it today.
I ate a whole bowl of cereal this morning and had a bit of tea and grapes.
Mother fixed her own breakfast and is chipper and bored today. Time has really slowed down for her. Time is still relevant, so that's a good sign.
Today I will try to find the joy in what I DO have going in my favor as to what I DON'T have going on.
IF I COULD JUST REMEMBER TO TAKE MY OWN ADVICE!!
Over the past few weeks I keep desperately saying, "Now what is it I usually do to keep the blues away?"
I can usually keep it at bay and WITHOUT help from drugs and/or alcohol. So I may have to turn to the doctor for some stress relief soon.
But I am off of unofficial 'death watch' for now. I know that but my stressed body doesn't know that yet. Soon, I hope.
**UPDATE: I got my The 36-Hour Day: A Family Guide to Caring for People with Alzheimer Disease, Other Dementias, and Memory Loss in Later Life book that Sandi Rainbolt recommended to me today. Already very helpful.